Papenburg, ich komme.

Yeah, getting ready to leave now.  Just had breakfast, shower and a good amount of coffee to start me up for this day of public transport :/

And this other Kai from Bremen just kinda offered to drive me all the way to Leer. D:
….what kind of weird random man does that seriously? Clearly just so he can perv on my bf ha!

Coach leaves at 13:15. Best get running, need to go buy some stuff in town first

Fuck this week seriously

Seriously, i want this week to hurry up and finish. I get to see Kai at the end of it ^^

Aaaaah i just want to look him in the eyes and remind him that I love him. i seriously hope he still feels the same way, i wouldn’t be surprised if he didn’t though…aah ever since Christmas I’ve thought he was gonna break up with me….and that is the worst feeling in the world. The fact we hardly talked for 2 weeks certainly didn’t help the situation.  But I’m really fucking glad things are sort-of back to normal now, i just can’t wait to spend some time with him.

I am fully aware this sounds ridiculous, and cheesy and gay as fuck, but I just can’t wait to be there for him.
I’m not even that bothered about sex, since…clearly he thinks it’s shit.
I just want to have a really nice weekend with him, and prove to him (and myself) that i’m a better boyfriend than this Marius fella. I don’t really know why I hate that cunt so much, i just do. And i’d hate to ever be compared to him.  i don’t like cheaters.

Enough deep thought, i am seriously excited as fuck. But he’s gonna be tired as hell on Friday night, might just fall asleep with him while watching a film or something. Fucking want :3 x

gayesspay

Haha awwwwwww. My little speech impedimented French-Canadian can welter my weight any day
Meh, i couldn’t watch it all the way through, i remember watching this fight with Kai and absolutely creasing at home for not being able to speak English…whatsoever But yeah, I fucking miss that too much seriously.

I never got round to blogging about that weekend at his before Christmas. It was awwwww…. brilliant, but I can’t be assed to retell the entire story now, so i will later. If not for my own entertainment, for the fact i can look back at this blog in 5 years and remember the bloody amazing times ˆˆ

Ahhhh drinking beer, watching grown men fight each other on tv and then watching Black Books, which ended in us not watching Black Books and instead me trying to have sex with him. Haha, brilliant

On another note before i go to bed, since it’s FUCKING 3:25am…..WTF. Yeah, Erik invited me to Arnhem with him at end of February. Mint, i think i’m gonna go. It’ll be a good laugh, he’s a canny lad. And cheap ass flights from Birmingham. £10 return what the actual fuck.

x

der bartmann

That isn’t just any mental case, he’s my mental case :3

I hate my housemates’ laughs

They all sound like fucking hyenas. i’m sitting upstairs in my room trying to work and they’re all in the kitchen pratting around and laughing, and obviously i’m no killjoy. But god. they have the most annoying laughs ever. i don’t think I ever really noticed until now. arrrrgh.

yay

Best money i have ever spent. Seriously can’t wait to try it out haha. Never thought i’d say that about an ice-cube tray.
Anyways just a quick post before I go to sleep to suffer another painful day of essay writing :/

Sitting at University.

bored out of my tits.
the end

You’ve Got The Love

Skype

You know where the door is. Just gtfo.

Oh yes, the one moment I actually get the chance to call Kai on Skype and it decides not to function. Thanks a bunch you twat.

night. i’m feeling rather desperately lonely actually. How sad is that, i’m a 19year old man, not some old woman sitting at home with two many cats.

(Edit: We’re a nation of failing grammar. “Educashun…it isn’t working”)

I need to move. preferably as far away from this shithole and as close to him as possible
x

It has recently occured to me

that I am the happiest i have ever been.
I can just hope he still feels the same.
Even here in a cold 3 storey house in Coventry, with snow chaos taking over around us, 400 miles away from my family, and even further from my boyfriend. I wouldn’t swap it for a mile though.

2010…

So much to look forward to.
Yet, unfortunately so much to not look forward to this year. Can’t wait for end of term and summer!

I am making a mental note to be a better boyfriend, better son and a better friend this year.
x